Rachel Gorry has shared that her “thoughts have changed” on getting into a relationship after her late husband, Daniel passed away.
Daniel was diagnosed with oesophageal cancer in September 2018 before he sadly passed away on April 1st, 2020 at the age of 29.
Following his death, the influencer admitted that she could not imagine being in a relationship with anyone other than her late husband.
However, she has now explained that her opinion on this has shifted.
During an Instagram Q&A, she opened up about the idea of love after Daniel.
“Look I suppose I’ve always been very open and honest with you, you know, in saying that I don’t ever see myself with anyone other than Daniel, that I don’t ever see myself in a relationship again,” she began.
“Then I suppose four years pass and the loneliness creeps in and my thoughts have changed.
“I kind of feel like maybe I am ready for something or maybe it would be nice to spend your life with someone. It might be nice to have somebody there.”
The mother of three went on to say: “I never thought I’d be a widow at 29. To think at the time it was a bit naive I would spend the rest of my life on my own.
“Now don’t get me wrong it scares me so much, I’ve never actually said that out loud.”
However, she admitted that there is still a barrier there as she mourns her husband. She recalled a conversation she had with Daniel’s father where he encouraged her to look for love.
“He was saying, ‘You’re such a young woman you can’t spend the rest of your life on your own. We’ll support you no matter what and we love you. You’ll always be a daughter to us. Daniel wanted you to move on’.
“It’s the words ‘move on’ hits my ears wrong. I know that sounds so silly. It kind of makes me feel like that means I’m leaving Daniel in the past if I was to meet somebody and that’s not the case because Daniel is such a massive part of my life and he always will be.
“I’m such a young widow with three kids, that’s a lot for someone as well. So maybe I would just be better spending the rest of my life on my own!”
Of course, she confessed that she struggles with guilt at the idea of beginning a new relationship.
“It’s a bit of a tricky one. But I do think that it would kind of nice maybe to have somebody and share your life with somebody maybe. Who knows, we’ll see,” she concluded.
