Pippa O’Connor is opening up about her experience after having a miscarriage in 2020.
She and husband Brian Ormond, shared the news when they announced her pregnancy with baby Billy in 2021. Explaining how she felt it was important to share the realities of having a family.
Speaking with Georgie Crawford’s podcast The Good Glow, Pippa explained: “It’s so nerve-racking to be in anyway vulnerable out loud.”
“I don’t know if I would have said it if I wasn’t pregnant again. I don’t know if I would have been mentally strong to say it that soon.”
Continuing: “I had the miscarriage in October of 2020 and I was ten weeks and I suppose it absolutely knocked me. I had never been through anything like that before.
“The first two times I got pregnant it happened easy and then after Louis it didn’t happen for five years.
“So both Brian and I thought that was that, we were both happy with our two boys.”
The Dubliner also shared how she found out the tragic news, at her second scan.
Explaining: “I was going in for a scan. It was like nine o’clock in the morning, I was all dressed up because I was on the way to Kildare Village.
“Brian was waiting for me in the car and I said ‘Oh I’ll be really quick and out in like ten minutes’.”
Pausing for a few seconds, she told Georgie: “I’ll talk as much as I can hear before I get upset.”
“The minute she put the thing on, I just knew by her – she had this look about her and was just silent.
“And she told me ‘I’ll be back in just a minute’ and I thought ‘Jesus Christ, don’t say this to me’. Then she brought the doctor in and she just said ‘Pippa I’m really sorry there’s no heartbeat’.”
The mum of three bravely shared her reaction to the tragic news, getting emotional as she spoke.
Saying: “Like – I was just so floored. My initial reaction was ‘Okay that’s fine’ and I was literally putting my coat on to go to the door and she was calling me back.”
“My initial reaction was – sorry Georgie – let me compose myself for a second.”
Confessing what her first thoughts were she said: “My initial reaction was ‘Of course this is going to happen, you have two healthy kids. You can’t always have it plane sailing’.”
“I was embarrassed, I felt like I was wasting her time and couldn’t wait to get out of there. I thought ‘Don’t be such a stupid b****’. I was almost punishing myself straight away.”
Revealing why it was important for her to share the news of her miscarriage, when announcing her pregnancy, Pippa confessed she wanted to share what their journey had actually been like.
Saying: “I decided to say it out because I didn’t want to just announce the pregnancy and go ‘Here we go again, lucky us’. I just felt like I wasn’t being true or honest.”
“I thought it was important to say it and I’m glad I did. When you say something out loud you’re comforting yourself and someone else,” she added.
